Under Pressure

I’ve had this post in my head for awhile. It’s hard to communicate because it’s announcing I feel like a failure, which isn’t necessarily part of the ‘branding’ I’d like to associate with my name. Once upon a time, circa 2005-2010, I was a writing machine. Seriously. I was not only churning out original work, but a fairly high level of fanfiction as well.

Thanks, Amazon – a new thing to obsess over.

Maybe other authors don’t get caught up in their numbers.  I, for one, do.  Literally, numbers can make me have a better or worse day.  I should divorce myself from letting returns, etc. bring me down, but as a self published author, it’s difficult.  Being self published adds such a personal involvement that it’s difficult not to take everything seriously.

Goal oriented.

Here’s a tweet from me circa early August omg that feels like forever ago.  Actually, all things considered, I was pretty spot on.  I finished the final draft the first weekend of October at 57,790 words.  I’m proud that I can set realistic goals.  However, wait for it – an upcoming post is going to explore the strange pressure I put on myself.

This weekend.

Although I’m experiencing some technical difficulties at home (no steady internet since Tuesday – the horror!), I am hoping to finish up the book trailer and review trailer for Major Pain this weekend. With a cover almost finished and the manuscript formatted, I am on track to do a soft release later this month and a bigger release in November.

My favourite Movies of 2017

The first months of the year are typically a dumping ground for bad movies, but this year has proven otherwise.
The year is young, but it’s never too early to start celebrating the finest movies offered up by both the multiplex and the art house. After only four months, moviegoers have been gifted with a bounty of great blockbusters, indies and documentaries, proving that filmmakers are continuing to find new ways—both big and small—to entertain, excite and enlighten, provided online by project free tv. No doubt there are numerous gems to come in the months ahead, given that by the holidays, we’ll have the latest works from acclaimed directors like Paul Thomas Anderson, Martin Scorsese, and Steven Spielberg (to name just three). For now, however, these are our current picks for the best films of 2017.

I don’t know what this says about my demographic.

A friend (actually, my co-writer from Take One! at Mulholland High, an unpublished YA novel of mine, but I digress…) posted this on my facebook timeline today and I had to laugh. When potty training and marching band come up in the same search, I have to wonder about who’s buying my books. Sure, I like any reader, but it does make me curious about Amazon’s recommendations.

5 Words.

I’ve been away awhile and will be away for a bit longer. In the final draft stage of my next book to be published. All my creative energy is focused on finishing!

Until then, read this and loved it:

Glad to know I’m not alone

As an “adult,” there are some things I would not like to admit to.  Jealousy.  Obsession.  Anger.  But these are all emotions I experience.  Maybe one day I will become a more zen person, but I don’t see that happening anytime soon.  In real life, I love expletives and while I celebrate friends successes, sometimes I do get jealous.  The secret above is one I could have easily written. 

Publishing in another language

Readers come in all forms.  For example, my book club in Dubai had members from many different countries.  Most of the group were not reading in their first language – a fact I was continually impressed by.  We would have relatively (wine inspired) deep discussions about rather involved books and they would always surprised me with their abilities to read and interpret the English language.

Memorable reviews.

I’ll follow up this post with my ongoing adventures in Kindle Select, however, the recent free listing of my book Keeping in Line (under my YA and real name, Courtney Brandt) did generate two memorable reviews:

“To whoever wrote the book Keeping in Line: I want to personally say fuck you.  You ruined my sleep cycle that I worked hard to reset.  And I mean this in the most polite way.  The book was clean. 😉 “